Addictions

Scrolling down endlessly

Perpetually attached to the phone

Waiting for that text

Of that friend

In hopes it will rescue 

My soul

It feels very important

Not to feel

My painful chest

I can't tolerate it

My hopes are crushed

While my tasks are piling up

Like dirty underwear

Under my chair

It may be that I'm an adult

But I look like a kid

I'm a house

Full of chaos

As if I have just been

Abandoned

If I only dared

To be brave

And llisten

Cope with this pain

In this moment

But today I just need to

Forget about everythiing

Hide

While I watch the world

Complain

Get silly advice

Laugh about 

Almost anything

Find the world

Didn't crumble

That it is still in one piece

While we all have shit

To deal with

I judge myself

And that is fine

Yes this is nonsense

And it still feels nice

Be pampered

By doing nothing

Sit in this feeling

Being avoided